An extension of "Heirloom & Object" Both projects being created in tandem. "I Can't Help But To Grieve Out Loud" is a site-specific weaving of self expression that aims to capture complex grief as one navigates a pandemic through writing, photography and time based media, with a disability ethos. This sensual portrait piece was made in the early morning, after heartbreak, brain fog and intense migraine, before I take all my medicine. A moment of appreciation, waking early to commune with the sun.